...Rays of Hope...

I was in a meeting earlier today. Anyway, over lunch, some of our superiors who were in that meeting discussed some issues which incidentally touched on the sexuality of one of their contemporaries. I was beaming with hope inside because some of them were very okay with it. They were saying there is nothing wrong with being gay or with a man having sex with another man. Unfortunately I did not hear my boss or my colleagues say anything for or against it at all, so maybe perhaps it is not yet time for me to tell them I'm gay when they bug me again with the question, "Do you have a girlfriend?" or some other similar remarks. Nevertheless, it really was a relief that at least I know now that there are some people in our organization who are very open-minded about it. I just hope nobody noticed how happy I was upon hearing those non-homophobic remarks. :D

Jeepney

Last week, I was on my way to work when I noticed this cute guy inside the jeepney. His face wasn’t that perfect, but he looked hot. He looked innocent. He looked young, but his body looked developed I’d like to see him naked (uh oh, too early to get horny…) If only I could see through the UP shirt he was wearing. Anyway, I did the only thing I could do when in this kind of situation (now don’t get your minds green): I just glanced at him once in a while. He glanced my way too. I didn’t really know what to make of it: was he also one of us and testing the waters if I would give in, or was he straight and getting ready to humiliate me in front of everyone? Anyway, since the jeepney ride was short, I had no chance to know. What surprised me though was that as I was about to go down, he put his leg across the exit in such a way that I would have to squeeze my way out. Oh brother! I was tempted to touch and squeeze his thigh! Haha. But the decent side of me decided to get out as quickly as possible. As the jeepney took off, I glanced at him, and I saw him looking at me. Argh! Should I have done something or what?!

Anyway, last Saturday, on my way home after meeting up with a friend (hey, thanks for showing up!), I was inside the jeepney when I saw this cute hunk. He looked older than me, perhaps late 20s or early 30s. His beautiful eyes looked so innocent, and his lips were oh so kissable! I wanted him to look at me, but he never did. Well I guess he had an idea that I was way head over heels about him, but perhaps he just decided to ignore me.

Haha, so there I was, drooling over this guy and wishing that the ride would never end. Then I noticed the guy beside him smile, as if jokingly. And then I realized he caught me looking at the cute guy. About a minute later, the cute guy, the other guy, and the girl across them went down. What the?! I didn’t know they were together. Haha, I guess they were all laughing at the gay boy who’s gone gaga over the hunk.

What is it with jeepney rides anyway? Fate lets you come across with any guy who could be the man of your dreams only to have you wake up to reality when the ride ends. Oh well, that’s life! And it’s even harder for a gay guy.